Self Portrait!! (Blog Post#15 )

Drum roll please, it is the moment that maybe the only three people who watch this blog have been waiting for!!
Hee, it's my self portrait!!

With this piece I was trying to portray the art style of Neo-Impressionism. With Impressionism you can see brush strokes in the work, and usually the tones are softer and look smoothed out. This however was extremely difficult for me to pull off in Adobe Illustrator.

As for meaning, I put a LOT of it into this piece. I spent literally three weeks planning out in my sketch book what I wanted to do.


With the portrait I wanted to show my two sides. If you have read my other blog (Click dah link) you may have realised that I have depression.

And so the story of how this piece came into play. Everyday when I go out I have to smile and pretend like I'm okay, like the world is okay. However because of my parent's divorce and a multitude of other stuff I'm not exactly in the best of moods.
SO I created a picture in my sketch book of what I wanted to do for this assignment. It was a mask with what I enjoy written and drawn on it, and on my own face I would show sorrow.



On the mask you can see two eyes of different colour and some words, "Standing, stalling, always falling. Story of my life."
These words are song lyrics, and music is really what has kept me from vegitating in my house. The band that U took the lyrics from, Elliot Minor, is my favourite band and has inspired me in so many different ways. But that story is for another day.

The purple and red eyes on the mask are from an anime called "Kuroshitsuji". The purple eye is from the boy Ciel, and the red from my favourite character, a butler called Sebastian. Kuroshitsuji is my favourite anime and brings me quite a bit of joy. I share this passion of Kuroshitsuji with a few very close friends who also make me happy.

The mask itself is inspired by "Darker Than Black", and anime that I hope to be doing a blog post on next time. Darker than Black, let's call it DTB, is also one of my favourite anime and currently the object of a weird obsession of mine. The main character, Hei, wears a mask like the one in my self portrait.

And the dog-like ears!! Foxes and wolves have always held a place in my heart, and more recently Kitsune (Kitsune are japanese fox demons). A Kitsune usually takes the form of a female to bewitch men, and although I don't exactly do a lot of bewitching a Kistune has many other loveable and non-loveable aspects. They are also quite knowledgeable, which is why I chose a Kitsune's ears as opposed to a Kitsune tail. I am knowledgable in quite a bit of things, except math.



On my face, human face, there you can see a kanji symbol. This symbol means 'sorrow' or 'grief'. This face is what hides behind the mask of what makes me happy. Seeing as I only seem to show people what is on the mask, not many people can see that I am suffering from a pretty deep depression.

If you really want to know why my hair is three different colour is because I'm weird and love to play with my hair. A lot. So that's why it's dyed in a weird way and if you have noticed- you people reading who actually know me- my hair turns into one giant poof ball half way through the day.

I don't have much to say about the background except that it is from another anime. The name tottally escapes me right now but when I remember it I shall let you know.

Thank you for reading this blog post, I hope you enjoy the labours of a crazily-worked eight days (As my peers worked on theirs for a good two weeks). Annnnnyway, I hope you come back tomorrow for my blog post on Darker Than Black!!